Felt this deeply. I'm in a very similar situation - going back home from the US after a year and half, where I've lived all my life.
But I am jealous of how much you say you've changed. This was kind of my goal - to be a completely different person by the time I went back, but I feel exactly the same guy I was when I left. You wrote you're scared you might not fit in again, I'm scared that I'll fit in too well. Grass is always greener I guess.
Neha I feel this with every fiber of my body. Its a cliche of a saying but you never feel enough of wherever you are - too foreign for the new place, too different for home. I also moved to the US 4 years ago for university and are now working here.
Every time coming home is joyous and scary simultaneously because the thought of leaving the unconditional love behind is so painful. I have built a tough shell living in the US because sadly love is so scarce to come by here and being away from everyone you love from childhood, it's natural I have to do everything by my own.
This breaks my heart, but I wish you the best time at home and eventually finding love in your new home <3
Felt this deeply. I'm in a very similar situation - going back home from the US after a year and half, where I've lived all my life.
But I am jealous of how much you say you've changed. This was kind of my goal - to be a completely different person by the time I went back, but I feel exactly the same guy I was when I left. You wrote you're scared you might not fit in again, I'm scared that I'll fit in too well. Grass is always greener I guess.
Neha I feel this with every fiber of my body. Its a cliche of a saying but you never feel enough of wherever you are - too foreign for the new place, too different for home. I also moved to the US 4 years ago for university and are now working here.
Every time coming home is joyous and scary simultaneously because the thought of leaving the unconditional love behind is so painful. I have built a tough shell living in the US because sadly love is so scarce to come by here and being away from everyone you love from childhood, it's natural I have to do everything by my own.
This breaks my heart, but I wish you the best time at home and eventually finding love in your new home <3